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[10 Nov 2005|03:38pm] |
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Everyday I wonder if Sarasota has changed any since I have been gone... Much to my surprize it hasn't. That kindof breaks my heart a little bit. Same old crap goes on. So that kind of sucks a lot. I am not looking foward to going home this summer at all. Oh well. Besides that, my life is going really well. I am over all happy with everything. My school owes me $400 so it rules. I am using that towards tution. Oh well people have fun in SRQ. I'm out...
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| My life in Lake Whales |
[15 Sep 2005|03:13pm] |
Well, life here only gets more complex each day. I work at the very least 20 hours a week, i have a full load when it comes to school, and i still manage to get all my work done for school which rules. I am still learning how to manage my time though. I am sorry for all the people back home that i do not talk to much anymore it is not that easy. RIght now i should be working on m y Mark exegesis paper that is due tuesday, but i am not. Anyways, i miss everyone, i miss going out dancing and all that great stuff, but as much as i miss everything, i know that i am happy here. this is the place where i belong to at least for right now. My own life has started and well, it rules. As much as i hate not being able to talk to the people i wish to talk, I love the fact that i am meeting so many new people. I love school, i like the people i am around, my professors are wicked, and well, i love being here. But besides that...
one of my turtles died. I am upset about that, but it is ok. I will just have to buy a new one.
On the brighter side of things allie comes home in 2 weeks not even... it rules. it is her birthday and i already know what i am giving her (besides a huge hug). I am pretty much broke so you know that it will not be much but i like it. Hopefully she will too.
I am "talking" (pretty much means we are dating) to this boy up here. His name is Ryne everyone here calls him "Postal". He is so funny. He makes me laugh like there is no tomorrow. And get this, he even feeds me! He is just simply a good guy, a straight up good guy. My favorite thing that i like about him is that despite everything horrible that has happened to him, he presses on, he tries to not let those things get him down. On top of all that he is just as crazy as i am and he falls or trips just as much as i do. And well that rules.
But seriously have to get truckin' on my paper... so until next time...
i miss you guys
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[19 Aug 2005|09:35am] |
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I have found my new amazing home. In LAKE WALES FLRODIA! my room mate is sreally cool, i made a new friend her name is stacey. Monday the boys are aloud to come over into the girl dorms which rules, so monday during school, i am going to be promoting a "get together" at our room. I think we are going to be providing snacks and what not... a nice ice breaker... right? who knows, i hope if will be fun. and the tuesday night the girls get to go over into the boys dorms. which will rule. Right now i am on my way to finding a new bank and finding where everything else is located. I am so excited... this years is going be interesting. I can not wait till the first fight breaks out... it will be funny... i am taking bets will it be over shampoo or something actually worth while? who knows. My other roomate (APRIL) will be coming tomorrow and i am hoping to find some really great places to go on sat. I also hope that y parent will come up... they are talking about it. so who knows right? well feel free to call me... my reception is really bad so i may or may not get it just leave a message.
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[06 Aug 2005|06:56pm] |
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live is going great for the most part. i leave town in less than 10 days which rules. man, ten days, it feels so weird to be leaving the place i lived at for so long. man, i can not wait. i have started to pack, i have the whole car situation worked out with my parents... find me on monday and you will see the deal i got. which rules. i am a very happy girl right now. man i still can not get over 10 days. i am going out tonight... what i am doing, who knows maybe going out to a couple of clubs maybe not... who knows what life has in-store for me. I end work on friday, my last night will be next wends. and well, i will wake up thurs. morning at 4AM to leave and be off until my next weekend off and when that weekend comes i wounder where i will be, alabama, georgia, coming home, or going to Tallahassee? humm all sounds good to me. i will cross that bridge when i get to it.
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| oh man... |
[03 Aug 2005|02:04pm] |
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Alright so i just got finished with the trip to colorado. and i loved colorado, i hope to go back in the winter. t was so good to see sebastian and marshay... i miss them both. I have some amazing pictures of the mountains. man i love the mountains. there is nothing that can compare to the moutains, not even the sunset off of the beach. watching the sun set through the mountains blows the ocean view of the sun set out of the water. Besides everything else that has taken place life is good. It is down to 14 (2 weekss) days left until i move 9 more days until i finish work. Man i can not wait. Life is good. wouldn't you agree? ANd on top of all that there ae some really amazing shows taking place this weekend... man i am going to live it up.
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[14 Jul 2005|06:59pm] |
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so life has been and will always be treating my pretty well... i have plenty to things to be happy about one being that i am alive and loved. Being loved is great, everyone is loved by someone... but not expereriancing that love could be tragic. so that is why i am happy because i can love people back and tell them how much i love them, even when i do not want to look at them. It seems that every year someone dies or moves away. but i guess that is what life is all about and to honest, i do not fear death, what i fear is moving away, being on my own, no one to fall back on. And well that is why i love being the "risk" taker, the one who is open to any challenges that may cross my path. i do not like to have any weaknesses and well fear is a weakness and to make that fear not important makes you stronger. Wow, i just had a batman flash back. anyways, i can not wait to see what life has stored up for me... i will always have fun, and will always be willing to take the hard way around things, i will look on the bright side of everything, well try to at least. After all looking on the bright side of things will always be the harder thing to do.
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[10 Jul 2005|01:22pm] |
as crazy as my life is i can never and should never complain. Everything happens for a reason i know this, so i take life as it comes. And to be honest, even though some really crappy things happened this week, some really amazing things did too. i guess that you have to look on the brighter side of things to really see what life is life. Yes it is the harder way to live life, but i am up for any challenges that comes my way.
i have made a new discovery as well. I really want to go into the military. i am going to retake my asvab, hopefully score well again and work on the physical part and get my lung capacity to increase and my heart rate to be stable then my fine friends, i will go in the the military and meet amazing people, make connections, travel the world, see people in pain and open my arms to them to tell them that some people really do care. Basically i would have no problem going into iraq and fighting, although i could not picture myself with a gun, yea so maybe that is where my dream really gets difficult.
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| gone crazy |
[21 Jun 2005|09:49am] |
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This past week has been completely crazy. two jobs full force, want to hang out with my friends but can not because i am passed out by 10:00 at night from working so many hours! but i miss every one. i need to go out and have a good time soon, i am tired of sleep, it is a waste of time. who needs it anyways? But i think last night top all the madness. I get a phone call from Dan, at 1:00 am saying that he has been in an accident, so there goes my night, i had to rush out of my house and go to his rescue. until 4:00 am, where finally i recieved some rest only to wake up at 9:00 am so i can do everything that needs to be done, such as going to the doctors (which is always a waste of time) coming home to make lunch for every one at my house, then to work where i pull an 8 hour shift possibly more. Man, i miss going out and dancing. someone please take me away from this mess and take me out for a night out on the town.
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[25 May 2005|04:42pm] |
i have definitly surprised every one recently, even my own parents. i guess over the year i have embraced my girly side. even old teachers of mine told me they barly recognized me... i do not know if it is a good thing or a bad thing. oh well, i guess the true test will be when i see friends that have moved away or when i see old friends out and about. oh well. i have been thinking about getting back into my roots, you know a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl... i do not know any more.
but besides that... enough about stupid mindless things...
i am 18... legal and in charge... got to love it.
this past weekend ruled! i went out dancing which was a lot of fun, went to a couple of partys, they where fun too. and well i think i prefer going to club over a party, well it all depends on who's i guess.
graduated from high school which ruled!
and now i am in the process of finding out when i can go on a trip. there are a coupe of things that have to take place, see josh, sab, shay, and nate some time this summer, just so i can hug each one and hang out and have a good time.
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[17 May 2005|10:33am] |
Wow, i have a lot of things to take care of.
i have been waiting for this weekend for my whole life. this weekend is going to be the best weekend ever! i am closing one part of my life and locking the door behind me and opening a new amazing door, i do not know what exactly is behind it, i have a good idea so i am going to leap into it with arms wide open and hopefully i will land on my feet.
WEND. spending the day doing what ever hanging out with people who i have not seen in a while.
THURS. ONE BIG PARTY! yep that is right i, my fine friends, am turning 18! going out, dancing, and i will have the time of my life.
FRI. Waking up very early for grad. practice, and then i will be at school for the majority of the day. but once that is done, what am i going to be doing, that is right, i am going to party!
SAT. waking up going to the beach, then grad. then once that is done, i am going to party one more.
SUN. church and getting refresh possibly going out again to celebrate!
so yep i am going to have an amazing birthday, i hope. So far it looks like it will be pretty good. and on top of everything that is going on, my mom is doing good. she will be back and better than ever.
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[26 Apr 2005|12:11pm] |
Alright... so the past few months of this year has been exciting, just as i predicted. There has been a lot of stress but not all stress is bad, right? All i know is that i am happy, even with a couple people missing from my life, but knowing that they are a phone call away always reminds me that i still have them close to me, even if they are a couple thousand miles away.
The golden area has now well, stopped shining. Shay and SAb are no longer together, almost 4 years done, over, dried out, how ever you want to say it, they broke up. But hopefully they will stay best friends.
I do not know which month i will love the most, may or june? Well in May i graduate, turn 18, allie comes home, grandma comes down, hopefully i will go sky diving, and well it will be just fun. or will june be one of my favorite months, jim turns 16, josh comes home (hopefully) sebastian comes down, and a road trip around florida's "hot spots" is brewing. which equals, fun.
well, i just have a lot to look forward to, so i think i will.
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| THANK-YOU GOD! |
[11 Apr 2005|02:00pm] |
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Ok... so i am a little stressed about life. there is nothing more horrible than sitting around doing nothing and knowing that there really is so much more out there in the world but you can not do anything abot it because your stuck in the place you are in becuase you can not get far with out a little backing and right now i have no backing...
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life has just got a little better...
Allie is going to come home for my graduation, which she does not have have to go to but will. My grandma is coming down as well, i do not know how well that will go but it should be interesting. I am moving in four months to lake whales florida, i am listening and watching my incubus DVD... so right there you know nothing ever could go wrong while listening to incubus. And well i get a call from my mother and she said one of my teachers found a scholarship for me and all she needs to do is write a letter about me,on top of that it is worth $5000 which is just about the amount i need for the rest of my tution and if i get it i will only have to pay $3000 to $4000 out of my pocket for school a year... and that is opposed to 17,000. So so i am about to freak out and jump up and down cry... because i do not know if anyone knows how much i need this scholarship. this school is freakin amazing and i have to go there, this school is my home and well i want to be home... I just can not believe it. I have also rewrote my graduation speech and maid it longer like the lady asked my to do. so it should be good. i hope. Man this year has been amazing despite some of the crapy things that happened. I mean i miss all of my friends that have moved, shay, sab, nate, josh, allie... but it is ok becuase they all went and did what they wanted and are living their lives for themselves and well that is all i could ask for them to do.
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[19 Mar 2005|05:12pm] |
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Man, our government system sucks. I do not understand why any one would ever want to hurt someone but they do... i mean i understand rage to a certian extent but there is a line. I understand that people are smart and can get away with things but i would rather some theif that stole a car or two out of prison than some child molester, i do not get it. And it kind of scares me that it is up to our generation to actually do something about it, like being lawyers, doctors, psychologists, teachers, amazing parents, mentors, foster parents, a light in the darkness, judges, machanics, and what ever else i can not think of. I man i know some really, um how do you say, not so great people, but on the bright side of things i know some really amazing people too, but there is one problem, they "bad" people out weight the "good" and that is what scares me. And what makes me sad is to see people who could have amazing lives if they were up to standing up for a fight, but they don't. I just wish people would try... someone will always need someone else. Well i am standing up in this fight... but am i standing alone?
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| warning bored girl on the loose |
[10 Mar 2005|01:13pm] |
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i Have realized a lot of things recently and some of it rules and other stuff just kind of sucks but i know in the end it will be ok. i am tired a little on the bored side and i am stuck at school... i hsve a meeting after school and to tell the truth i do not want to go i would rather just go to work, but of course i will go to work after the meeting. i will be pulling almost 40 hours this week and it is almost double i normally work, and i kind of like it and hate it all at once. I need the money so why not work a few more hours when i can. this weekend is going to be interesting. i have so much to do on sunday and i do not know what i am going to do, i have the class i teach, amber's b-day is coming rather soon, and i have a movie night i am suppose to go to at 7. so sunday is doing to be crazy. friday i am hoping it will turn out to be good. sat. will be probably me sitting at home after work trying to get myself together for sunday and monday. Monday is going to be a huge day for me, i am visiting warner. and basically it is going to tell me if i belong at warner or if i just go to usf... so it is intense and i love it. and this trip to warner is going to tell me if i need to get tested, which will suck but it will be good to know if my short term memory works the way it should finally or if it is all about my long term memory is what i need to use for me to remember things. it is all a crazy mess. and i just want to know how much work i am going to have to do. and well besides that life is the same, crazy as always. I never do know hwat i want, but does anyone. i am about to start the rest of my life and it scares me a lot and i am loving every second of it. i guess it is just nice knowing that i do not have high school anymore once may comes around. my dreams are about to come to reality. it is nice to say that my teenage life is not going to be the hight light of my life. i know that their is more to come, things that are going to better, some things are going to be worse, but my own life has just started to begin.
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| sick, cold, and loving every second of it |
[02 Mar 2005|01:13pm] |
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Life as i know it is completely... crazy... shocking... different... and amazing! As i sit in front of my computer wrapped up in a blanket starring outside wishing i had a kleenex so i can blow my nose (this cold or allergies, whatever it is, is really getting to me) and i am loving every second of it. I am completely confused about everything i have going on in my life, nothing is simple i am learning that quite well. I did get accepted to the two colleges i wanted to really really and i mean really wanted to go to Warner and USF. Both schools are amazing. Here is the down side of Warner, a lot of money because it is private. And the down side of USF no place to live well except for home and i do not want to commute, i would have to until i found a room mate. So i do not know what i should do. ANd of course my life can never be with out some kind of drama... but believe it or not, i think i finally found some good drama?! I think this kind of drama i am talking about is going to stick around until i break my fear, which is really hard to do. I know what i want, i know what my friends want, i know what i need right now, and now the only true question is, do i want what i need?
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[17 Feb 2005|10:15pm] |
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does anyone want to go to the taste of the chaos tour tomorrow night, i may have one extra ticket, of course you will have to pay me back, call me if you want to go, hey and you might even potentially have a ride to orlando and from orlando! we leave tomorrow at 2 2:30 imagine that...
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| the week is over! |
[04 Feb 2005|02:09pm] |
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i think there was something in the air this week that made everyday a bad one. nothing absolutely horrible happened, no one i knew died, no crashes of any short this week, but it was just bad. nothing seemed to go right. work screwed up my schedule, but in he end gave me more hours which means more money, shay and sab went home to colorado, but they are going to get an apartment soon, meaning i am definitely going to visit this summer, i got sick but that is nothing too new. the clouds finally defeated the son which makes me kinda said, i wanted to go to the beach. but i guess you can't always get what you want. But on the bright side of today i got paid! CHA ching. meaning my turtles just got a new tank, new rocks to hide under and bask in the fake sun (it is a light bulb. Man they are so cool. Oh and another fantastically great thing happened, i applied to USF and i already have a room mate. so i think i am definitely going to move to tampa at the end of the summer, how great is that. Man although bad things after bad things happened to me this past week, some really awesome things did too. Oh and on top of things today i bought some new cd's and amy is going to help me out today to create a mix of some amazing songs to send to a friend. And man today will start off the new week.... and it will be absolutely amazing.
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| what a week |
[19 Jan 2005|01:37pm] |
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my tattoo finally healed. so i am going to go to level 5 on friday for th pictures, or hum maybe later today, i do not know i guess i should call first. But besides that my week has been so far rather unusual, i guess you can say that. it has been filled with surprises? if that makes any since. but i have know clue what is going on, it is some sort of conspiracy i think. Like to day some one told me i look for feminin and i have grown up... but i still look the same, i guess i embraced my girlie side? i do not. maybe it is the fact that i have incorporated colors into my wardrobe all thanks to shopping with my mother. I have almost given up on t-shirts, black, white, blue, and grey... i love them so much though. oh well. but if someone know what is going on in my life and why it has been so different, please let me know, any thoughts on anything? Man maybe it is this new tattoo ever since i got it my life has not been the same? but i doubt that is the cause. and to top things off, i have been thinking about singing in front of people with my youth group praise and worship team, yes me. I do not know how far i will go with that one. Any ways shay and sab come home for the next week! on sat. they arrive! i am so excited. i just pray that the weather will warm up into the 70's again so we can go to the beach if not my little florida blood will freeze at the beach.
Annie... happy birthday!
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[02 Jan 2005|04:13pm] |
you know... i think that this year is going to absolutely amazing, i just know it. a lot of great things are going to happen for me and i just hope i realize that they are happening before it is too late. of course i am going to have horrible crappy things happen to me, but some reason i just think that the good will out weigh the bad, unlike this past year. so i guess all i have to say about that is "bring it on!"
enough about that subject.
oh but i read my year horoscope and it said i am going to have romantic relationships this year left and right. and basically i think that is a load of crap. i do not think they are ever right but what do i know? well at least mine are almost always wrong i think i have only seen well heard of one horoscope that came true, which was about a friend's secret was going to come out and it did. but if anyone reads this and it turns out i have plenty or even one boyfriend this year please remind me of this post maybe i become a believer, but probably not.
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